For at least twenty years, I have enjoyed walking labyrinths. Labyrinths are maze-like structures that have been used as spiritual tools for centuries. For the past seven years, I’ve been walking labyrinths throughout the northeastern United States, and blogging about them. To learn more about labyrinths, check out this page at the Labyrinth Society. To find labyrinths near you, try the Worldwide Labyrinth Locator.

A few weeks ago, I took a trip walking a bunch of labyrinths in Bucks and Montgomery Counties. It was during that trip that I walked my 100th labyrinth! And that doesn’t even count portable canvas labyrinths I’ve walked indoors, or the times I’ve walked the same labyrinth more than once. (I know I’ve walked the labyrinths at Kirkridge and Trinity Episcopal Church a bunch each.) I didn’t even realize that I’d hit that milestone until I drove home and started writing blog posts about the day.

This sixth labyrinth of the day was at Stony Creek Park in Lansdale, PA. It’s a 7-circuit classical design, with a grass path and mulch walls. I must have forgotten to get a picture of the whole labyrinth. The only photo I have is below, of the boulder in the center. You can see some of the path there behind the boulder.

What I found odd as I walked it was that the grass was the path, not the mulch. That felt backwards to me, especially as the grass was rather high, which made walking it just a little challenging. It felt like a lot more work walking this one than I was used to.

The question on my mind as I walked was this: What should I do about Biblia Luna? Biblia Luna is the newsletter I started writing a few years ago about the intersection of faith and mental illness. About six months ago, I abruptly stopped writing for this blog and for Biblia Luna. (I’ll be talking about the reasons for that in a future blog post, once I’ve finished blogging about these labyrinth walks.) Just a few days before making this labyrinth trip, I finally started to blog again. I finally feel like I’m ready and motivated to do this work that is so important to me. But I wasn’t sure that I had the energy or interest to pursue Biblia Luna anymore.

The audiences of Scholtes-Blog and Biblia Luna certainly overlap, but they’re not identical. I wondered if I should somehow try to reach out to both groups, or try to combine them into one, or something else? I just don’t know what direction I want my online writing to go in the near future. So I carried that question into the labyrinth, hoping for some insight.

So I walked this counterintuitive labyrinth, so often thinking I was walking on the wall instead of the path. It took a while until I heard a response to my question, and when it did come, it too was counterintuitive. “Don’t do anything with Biblia Luna right now,” I heard. I could send out an occasional note to the Biblia Luna audience with a link to my blog updates, in case they might be interested. And then after a little while, I would make a decision about what the future of Biblia Luna is (or isn’t). And that’s the time when I can share that plan with both of my audiences. But the key here is to be patient.

I thought about how the first time I started blogging years ago, I had no idea what I wanted to do with that blog. I just posted things in all sorts of directions, but that led directly to the composition and publishing of my memoir, Darkwater, and the marketing of that book itself led to me creating Biblia Luna. So maybe there’s something down the road that will happen organically.

After all, when I was struggling with getting Darkwater published, and feeling like a failure, a wise person told me, “Do you know what a writer does? A writer writes.” I just need to keep writing. What it will eventually turn into is anybody’s guess, and only the future has the answer to that. For now, just keep writing.

What advice would you give someone at a crossroads? How have you found yourself at a crossroads in the past, and what did you do? Let me know in the comments!

If you’re interested in checking out the archives of Biblia Luna, you can find them here.