Dark Firewater (Part Two)

This is Part Two of a post I began yesterday. Click here to read Part One. The words of the fire resonated with me so deeply. I have been so depressed for the past few months. I feel like the whole year has been a year of writing, but the past few months have been … Continue reading Dark Firewater (Part Two)

Dark Firewater (Part One)

This is a pretty long post, so I'm publishing it in two parts. Here's Part One. Part Two will come tomorrow. In the woods behind my house, there sits a fire pit. I built it shortly after we moved here, and used it a lot for the first few years. Lately, it has sat idle. … Continue reading Dark Firewater (Part One)

One Down

About two months ago, I submitted a proposal for my book, Darkwater: Memoir of a Pastor Who Lives with Depression to two publishers. I knew that it could take several months to hear back from them. I don't know how the internal workings of publishing houses work, but I imagine that they have to work through … Continue reading One Down

Finding Other Voices

So here's what happened. We'll start last Thursday. Last Thursday evening, I led a Bible Study, the first in a six-session series on the book of Revelation. Afterward, I felt guilty, and I wrote a blog post about it. In that post, I shared how terrible I felt, and how much I had done wrong. … Continue reading Finding Other Voices

The Truth of the Dark Voice

It was an amazing day at church this morning. It was Rally Day, the first day of Sunday School, the first day of a brand new Sunday School program at our church, with new teachers, a new curriculum, and a new style of teaching. It was Youth Sunday, an annual event where our teenagers plan … Continue reading The Truth of the Dark Voice

Moving the Source of Darkwater

What happened today was a long time coming. I have to start from the beginning. Forty-two years ago, I was baptized at Holy Cross Lutheran Church in Breakerville, a small town in the coal regions of Pennsylvania. (I’ve changed the names of both the church and the town, for reasons you'll get to in a … Continue reading Moving the Source of Darkwater

Snapshots of My Depression #15: The Belly of the Whale

This is one in a series of posts I’m calling “Snapshots of my Depression.” These are memories of times in my life when my mental illness manifested itself in one way or another. This is the story of how I experienced the call to become a pastor. I've told this story in various ways over … Continue reading Snapshots of My Depression #15: The Belly of the Whale