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No More Judging
Just this morning, I officiated at the confirmation of five wonderful teenage youth in my congregation. Among them was my own child Alex. At our congregation, each confirmand chooses a Bible verse to be their “Confirmation Verse.” Perhaps this is either a favorite verse, or one that holds special meaning for them at this time…
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Hopefully It’s Enough
Sigh. I’ve gone a terribly long time since my last blog post – again. I don’t know what to say, except that it’s autumn. Autumn is my favorite time of year. I love the cooling temperatures, the shorter days. I love the falling leaves, the crunch under my feet. I love the amber hue the…
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Before We Get Started…
Last night, I did something a little scary. Maybe a little brave. Maybe a little foolish. It happened because I had a rough day. I got some emails and phone calls that involved some conflict between people, and I felt caught in the middle of it. I felt as though it was my job to…
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Where Have I Been? Scribbling.
Where have I been? I haven’t been around lately. I’ve been going through the motions, but not really here. I’ve been multitasking, but all the tasks are just distractions from where I really belong. And where’s that? Here. Here with me. I haven’t been here with me. Where have I been? Nearby. Not too far.…
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It’s Not Easy Seeing Green
The Dark Voice has been with me since childhood. My closest companion, my eternal shadow. It’s the part of me that hates me, that wants me to feel miserable. It tells me: You are worthless. It tells me: You are only hurting people. Above all, it tells me: You should have known better. This voice…
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Validating our Grief
So, this morning I was driving to my biweekly therapy session. Along the way I was listening to one of my favorite podcasts, Not Good. The episode I heard was about grief; the host Molly gave a very thoughtful and heartfelt monologue about what grief looks like, what it feels like, and shared some very…
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Hopefully Tomorrow…
This is a shameless cross-posting from my newsletter, Biblia Luna. If you’re interested in signing up for it, a weekly look into the intersection of faith and mental illness, then just click here. A few months ago, I had the opportunity to be interviewed by Molly Jameson for her podcast Not Good. I felt at…
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This Deserving Stuff is Hard
So, as I blogged about a few days ago, I’ve been thinking and journaling about deserving since Lent began on Wednesday. I gotta tell you, this deserving stuff is hard for me. A few things have already become clear to me: First, that there is a very large, very loud part of me that feels…
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What Do I Deserve in Lent?
At my therapy session this morning, we talked about how important it was that I finally made the phone call to my doctor two weeks ago. I’m now getting physical therapy, which will hopefully help my back. (So far, nothing — but these things take time.) I shared that making that phone call was the…
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Backs and Burdens
So I’ve been having back issues lately. I know when it started. One day in October, I attended a conference, and walked around with my messenger bag on my shoulder all day. When the day ended, my back was not right. It wasn’t agony, but it was annoying, also familiar. I’ve wrenched my back maybe…
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