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Reflections by Michael J. Scholtes, Author / Pastor / Speaker

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  • Please Don’t Make me Bishop

    For about two or three hours last Friday evening, I was in constant, desperate prayer. I was overwhelmed with anxiety, to the point of tears. My repeated prayer was this: “Please God, please, don’t make me bishop.” I’ll tell you how I got there, and how God answered that prayer.…

Latest Articles
  • Changing My Brain’s Oil

    Changing My Brain’s Oil

    I’m sitting in the waiting room at the car dealer, waiting as the oil is changed and the emissions are inspected. It’s so easy to…

  • When Eye Sees God

    When Eye Sees God

    Previously on… During my first semester of college, I went through a deep depression. I was in a great deal of emotional pain and guilt,…

  • Rethinking the Light that Saved Me

    Rethinking the Light that Saved Me

    I was recently interviewed by Sean Wellington for his podcast Suicide Noted. See this blog post for my thoughts about the podcast in general. The…

  • Honest Talk about Suicide

    Honest Talk about Suicide

    I am grateful for Sean Wellington, and for his podcast, Suicide Noted. He’s working to change the conversation. For many years, I have worked to…

About Me

I’m Michael, the author of this blog. I search for meaning through walking labyrinths, through exploring my Christian faith and my experience of depression, through preaching, and through writing about it for you.