Rhythm of Resilience – The Daily W’s

Some weeks ago, my therapist suggested something, and it's stuck with me since. We were talking about how easily I slide into depression, and he said something like, "Do you think there might be an addictive component here?" He wasn't diagnosing. He wasn't accusing. He was just speculating. But it's been a very fruitful avenue … Continue reading Rhythm of Resilience – The Daily W’s

Catching the Backslide

It's been a while since I blogged anything but a sermon. I want to break this silence, and as I thought about what to write about, it occurred to me that some of you shared that you appreciated my openness and honesty about the experiences I'd had at Alternatives, the partial hospitalization program I attended … Continue reading Catching the Backslide

The Tender Mercies (Sermon)

This is an adapted form of the sermon I preached on the First Sunday of Advent, November 28, 2021. The texts I preached on were not the usual texts of the day. Rather, they were Luke 1:67-79 and Matthew 2:1-12. Blessed be the Lord God of Israel, for he has looked favorably on his people … Continue reading The Tender Mercies (Sermon)

My Two Wolves

There’s an old story I’ve heard many times throughout my life. I encountered it again a few days ago at the Alternatives Partial Hospitalization program. It’s a story that’s sometimes called “The Two Wolves.” It goes something like this: An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” … Continue reading My Two Wolves

The Hardest Words to Say

I have noticed that I have a very difficult relationship with some words. For instance, the sentence, you’re welcome. When someone thanks me for something, I usually respond with, “No problem,” or, “Sure,” or just a nod. I can’t get myself to say the words, “You’re welcome.” I’m not entirely sure why, but I think … Continue reading The Hardest Words to Say

That’ll do, Self. That’ll do.

A long time ago, I read about the difference between maximizers and satisficers. As I understand it (which may be incomplete or just plain wrong, I’ll admit), a maximizer is someone who always needs to find the perfect answer for something, and a satisficer is someone who determines a level that is “good enough,” and … Continue reading That’ll do, Self. That’ll do.

Pleading Guilty

Today was the second day of my ten-day program at Alternatives, the partial hospitalization program at Lehigh Valley Hospital. One of the things we learned about today was a type of therapy called “Rational Emotive Behavior Therapy,” or REBT. I found that this type of therapy really resonated with me. It was created by Albert … Continue reading Pleading Guilty

Untying the Gordian Knot

So today was my first day at “Alternatives,” a Partial Hospitalization program at Lehigh Valley Hospital. Partial Hospitalization is a program offered by many hospitals that provides intensive mental health care. It’s called “partial” because you spend a certain amount of time there each day, and then go home at night. At Alternatives, I will … Continue reading Untying the Gordian Knot

“The Lepers in Your Head” / Chapter Eleven: The Bridge

This is the conclusion of a novella I’ve written. It will be published here one chapter at a time, roughly twice a week. Trigger warning: this story is very dark, and may be triggering for those with suicidal ideation. It’s also not the kind of thing you’d expect your pastor to write. So, fair warning. … Continue reading “The Lepers in Your Head” / Chapter Eleven: The Bridge

“The Lepers in Your Head” / Chapter Ten: The Tree

This is the tenth chapter of a novella I’ve written. It will be published here one chapter at a time, roughly twice a week. Trigger warning: this story is very dark, and may be triggering for those with suicidal ideation. It’s also not the kind of thing you’d expect your pastor to write. So, fair … Continue reading “The Lepers in Your Head” / Chapter Ten: The Tree