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I was recently interviewed by Tracy at Calming the Chaos. We talk about all kinds of things, from the "Mike Treatment" to bongo drums to labyrinths. Check it out at the following links! YouTube Apple Podcasts Google Podcasts Spotify View a list of all my podcast episodes.
The Dark Voice has been with me since childhood. My closest companion, my eternal shadow. It’s the part of me that hates me, that wants me to feel miserable. It tells me: You are worthless. It tells me: You are only hurting people. Above all, it tells me: You should have known better. This voice … Continue reading It’s Not Easy Seeing Green
So, as I blogged about a few days ago, I've been thinking and journaling about deserving since Lent began on Wednesday. I gotta tell you, this deserving stuff is hard for me. A few things have already become clear to me: First, that there is a very large, very loud part of me that feels … Continue reading This Deserving Stuff is Hard
People never change. Their opinions and their thoughts are what they are, and nothing can change that. When I prepare sermons, and reflect upon sermons I’ve preached, I sometimes think, People never change. What’s the point of preaching? When I read about polarizing political topics, I often think, People never change. What’s the point in … Continue reading I don’t believe people can change
My first book, Darkwater: A Pastor’s Memoir of Depression and Faith, will be released in just five days. I’m spending these days asking you some questions related to themes in the book. I invite you to answer in the comment section! One of the major focuses in the book is a voice in my head … Continue reading A Question for You about Mean Voices in our Heads
There’s an old story I’ve heard many times throughout my life. I encountered it again a few days ago at the Alternatives Partial Hospitalization program. It’s a story that’s sometimes called “The Two Wolves.” It goes something like this: An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” … Continue reading My Two Wolves
This is the conclusion of a novella I’ve written. It will be published here one chapter at a time, roughly twice a week. Trigger warning: this story is very dark, and may be triggering for those with suicidal ideation. It’s also not the kind of thing you’d expect your pastor to write. So, fair warning. … Continue reading “The Lepers in Your Head” / Chapter Eleven: The Bridge
This is the tenth chapter of a novella I’ve written. It will be published here one chapter at a time, roughly twice a week. Trigger warning: this story is very dark, and may be triggering for those with suicidal ideation. It’s also not the kind of thing you’d expect your pastor to write. So, fair … Continue reading “The Lepers in Your Head” / Chapter Ten: The Tree
This is the ninth chapter of a novella I’ve written. It will be published here one chapter at a time, roughly twice a week. Trigger warning: this story is very dark, and may be triggering for those with suicidal ideation. It’s also not the kind of thing you’d expect your pastor to write. So, fair … Continue reading “The Lepers in Your Head” / Chapter Nine: The Chase
This is the eighth chapter of a novella I’ve written. It will be published here one chapter at a time, roughly twice a week. Trigger warning: this story is very dark, and may be triggering for those with suicidal ideation. It’s also not the kind of thing you’d expect your pastor to write. So, fair … Continue reading “The Lepers in Your Head” / Chapter Eight: The Dead
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